place an X by all the things you've done and remove theX from the ones you have not. Answer the questions at the end andand post on your blog for all your friends (including me) to see. This is for your entire life!
( ) Gone on a blind date
(x) Skipped school
() Watched someone die
(x) Been to Canada
() Been to Mexico
(x) Been to Florida
() Been to Europe
(X) Been on a plane
(X) Been lost, in any sense of the word,
(X ) Been on the opposite side of the country
(x) Gone to Washington , DC
(X ) Swam in the ocean
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
(X) Played cops and robbers
(x) Recently colored with crayons
() Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid for a meal with coins only?
(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
(X) Made prank phone calls
(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) Danced in the rain
(X) Written a letter to Santa Claus
() Been kissed under the mistletoe
() Watched the sunrise with someone you care about
(X) Blown bubbles
(X) Gone ice-skating
(x) Been skinny dipping outdoors
(X) Gone to the movies
1. Any nicknames? nae
2. Mother's name? Karla
3. Body Piercing's? EARS
4. How much do you love your job (on a scale of 1-10)10 being best? probably a 6 or 7
5. Favorite vacation spot? anywhere but here
6. Ever eaten cookies for dinner? YES
7. Ever been on TV? no
8. Ever steal any traffic signs? no
9. Ever been in a car accident? yes
10. Drive a 2-door or 4-door vehicle? four
11. Favorite salad dressing? bilbo's
12. Favorite pie? apple
13. Favorite number? 13
14. Favorite movie? harry potter, the da vinci code, dead poets society, a few good men, 10 things i hate about you.
15. Favorite holiday? not really big on holidays
16. Favorite dessert? cheese cake
17. Favorite food? toaster strudel... ahah
18. Favorite day of the week? recently.. none?
19. Favorite brand of body wash ? i don't care
20. Favorite toothpaste? whatever i've been using for the past 2 months
21. Favorite smell? adam
22. What do you do to relax? read, watch tv, lay in bed and think
23. What is your number 1 pet peeve in the whole world? not calling/texting people back... or using people
24. How do you see yourself in 10 years? 10 years i'll be 28... hopefully not living in michigan... out of college, out of student loan debt... career, not married,
25. Furthest place you will send this message? i'm not sending it, but i guess it can go anywhere in the world now it's on the internet.
26. Who will respond to this the fastest?nobody...

empty

so, i haven't written here since march, where i was going on and on about high school and wanting to be done and getting out of michigan.
right now, i just kind of feel like i want to be done.
just done.
i feel under appreciated
i feel walked on
i feel alone
i feel stupid
i feel angry
i feel like i've disappointed everyone.

i don't know where to start first
i don't know how to fix this
i almost feel like the only thing i'll be able to do to fix this is just to stay in my room and not do anything. not eat, not go out, not talk to anyone, i feel like i'm going insane

i feel like everyone's annoyed by me
my friends
my family
every thing's so fucked

i want to cry but i feel like when i go downstairs someone will ask me about it
and i don't want to tell anyone i feel like this

i want to just stop talking altogether
i want to not give a fuck
i want people to treat me the way i should be treated
i want people to actually give a shit about me

i want people to stop looking at me like i'm ridiculous every time i say something
i want people to start caring


i'm not done... not yet...