empty

so, i haven't written here since march, where i was going on and on about high school and wanting to be done and getting out of michigan.
right now, i just kind of feel like i want to be done.
just done.
i feel under appreciated
i feel walked on
i feel alone
i feel stupid
i feel angry
i feel like i've disappointed everyone.

i don't know where to start first
i don't know how to fix this
i almost feel like the only thing i'll be able to do to fix this is just to stay in my room and not do anything. not eat, not go out, not talk to anyone, i feel like i'm going insane

i feel like everyone's annoyed by me
my friends
my family
every thing's so fucked

i want to cry but i feel like when i go downstairs someone will ask me about it
and i don't want to tell anyone i feel like this

i want to just stop talking altogether
i want to not give a fuck
i want people to treat me the way i should be treated
i want people to actually give a shit about me

i want people to stop looking at me like i'm ridiculous every time i say something
i want people to start caring


i'm not done... not yet...