omgsh so this video at the bottom took fucking forever to put on here so people better be fucking reading my blog....
seriously i hate it
i want to quit so bad
but if i stay until next year,
i could get a scholarship!
so i was supposed to work today at 4 until 9, just a normal saturday night. my boss called me and told me they had to cancel my hours because another manager screwed up labor and now they can't have me work. i'm sorry but who the fuck does that? how do you screw up labor so bad that you have to call people and let them know they can't go in. second, i went in to see if my hours were cancelled for tomorrow too and her step- daughter was working so i asked her. and you know what she said? she said that my boss didn't cancel my hours because of labor but because she heard i was going to be putting my 2 weeks notice in soon.
who the fuck does that?! that's basically saying "oh i'm firing you because you are about to quit" is it not? i'm sorry it's exactly the same. and by the way i wasn't looking for a new fucking job until you started cutting me from the fucking schedule and cutting all of my fucking hours and calling me and telling me not to come in. that just fucking pisses me off
you know what else pisses me off...
when you give your friend a ride to school every fucking day and you also give her a ride home from school every fucking day and you take her to speedway every fucking morning and at least once a week you take her to the exact fucking opposite side of town from where both of you live and she fucking chain smokes in your car and leaves it a fucking mess. that what i hate.
it's like you can't take your fucking trash with you? you can't wait till you get out of my fucking car to chain smoke and give yourself fucking lung cancer? no you can't you have to roll down my fucking windows when it's fucking 10 degrees outside and chain smoke while i'm toting your ass around town. yes i understand that she gives me gas money when i need it but seriously? i get 10 bucks AND lung cancer? wow gee wiz thanks a ton! so i decided to tell her that she can't smoke in my car anymore. and she put a fucking guilt trip on me! like why not? and i'm like.. okay first of all i'm getting smoker's cough and i dont even smoke... second of all if my parents go into my car and they just fucking open the door and breathe in, they will notice that it smells like the inside of a cigarette in there. and third, i smell like smoke every fucking day and i'm sick of people thinking that i smoke.
ohhhh another thing, if you make plans with me first, keep them! don't fucking say that you have to go over to theron's just because something's wrong with his brain or whatever (i understand this sounds bad) but you fucking go over there what, 3 times a week and the other 3 or 4 days you spend with jason.
i was there for you before jason
i was there alot when theron wasn't there
i was probably there BEFORE theron
and yet i'm the person who gets ditched on a weekly basis
i'm the one that you hang out with for 20 minutes and theron or jason calls and you imediately have to go over there and i'm the one that has to waste their fucking gas (which you paid for but it's besides the point)
and i'm the one who never gets to see you
only you matter
only jason matters
only theron matters
and when something goes wrong, i have to help you pick up the pieces
and when i get the least bit mad at you and start telling you that what you're doing to me is wrong and i'm mad, you get hugely defensive and hurt and depressed like i'll leave you or i'll be pissed and i won't ever speak to you again because i do in fact mean alot to you it's just not enough for you to actually spend time with me other than the 20 minutes a day in the car where i'm suffocating because you blow smoke in my face.
if anyone reads this, i'm going to start vlogging soon i think =]
my youtube name is shanaenae0101
btw these pics are just some of my faves on my comp
from top to bottom:
Mitchell Davis/Livelavalive
Myself on halloween
a youtube livelavalive banner
art by Alex Pardee
another youtube livelavalive banner
more art by Alex Pardee
here's a video of me and jess
dooood this took like 2 hours to get on here... =[
comment if you read this =]
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